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How grateful can it be?

So fucking grateful that I cannot even tell how grateful I am <3

I want to hug my school teacher Sari and the headmaster and of course my parents who look after my babies Tyyne and Helga. I miss them more than words can tell. And a special hug to my boss Tracy who gave me the job <3

Every morning I wake up and think this is a dream. This place and people here are so different compared to Finnish people who always are angry and have negative vibes. Here everybody asks every day “what’s up”, “how are you”, “hola”, and they talk to me even though they don’t know me, so nice! I’m scared to go back home and see all those negative people. I feel lucky to still have plenty of time left here 😊

I really like my job, my boss is awesome and so is the manager Camilla. They are the kind of people that I like. And I love it that they trust me and give me free hands. In every posting I keep saying the same thing but that’s how I feel.

I really miss my dogs but I know they are in best hands at home, my mom and dad are taking good care of them <3 Everytime I go home here it’s so quiet which is strange. At home in Finland when I go home the dogs always arrange carnival and circus but I love that they show me how much they love me and I love them.

My dad will come to visit me here next week. It is so nice that he comes. Of course my dad goes to the beach to worship the sun 😀

This morning I am going to surfing again and how cool that will be, I am so excited. This all is so cool, I think too nice. I am always here so happy and positive.

I often think I cannot trust myself. I always think that whatever I’ll do I’ll screw up everything. But I should trust me even a little bit. Here people tell me every day how nice it is to come here because I always smile and give them happy vibes and inspire people. Why couldn’t I trust myself? Many many people tell me this every day but still I think I am a looser.

Five years ago doctors told me I would die. And if I survived I would never walk again. Now I surf, ride a horse, snowboard and do many many other things. Whatever I do, I still tend to think I am a looser. Now, surrounded by this paradise, it’s fucking time to stop those thoughts and start thinking I am a SURVIVER! And I really must start trusting myself, isn’t that true?

PEACE LOVE ROCKENROLL  RESPECT AND POSITIVE VIBES !! <3 <3 <3